Monday 11th July, 2009

Dear Diary

Alexa and I have been discussing her plans for her musical career, and I was very excited when she suggested that I could be a good maid for her, the sissy that I am loved the thought of me being dressed in black high heels, white stockings, skin tight satin french maids uniform, long flowing brown wig, make-up, white lacy lingerie and bra and then whilst dressed as such doing her washing and cooking. There would always be days when I am a man but I am a sissy and I should never forget that I am a sissy and a sissy doesn't deserve to be anything else than a slave, to be used by their domina for their dominas pleasure and amusement. The most exciting part of the day for me was when Alexa instructed me to write on my body with a permanent marker the words - PROPRIETATE PRIVATA A ALEXEI - PRIVATE PROPERTY OF ALEXA over my chest and my smooth hairless abdomen. I found this to be very exciting and sensual and as ordered I took a picture of myself and sent it to Alexa. This phrase is what is going to be tattooed on my abdomen and will be a permanent reminder that I belong to her, that I am Alexa's property and that no woman can lay claim to me. I am owned by Alexa and soon I will be collared by her also. I am hers till the day I die to use as she sees fit and to abuse as she sees fit my sole concern is to serve her well and to become a better slave for her. Alexa has instructed me that from the 1st of June I am forbidden from having sex and that is something I am proud to honour no woman shall again touch my body, no woman's lips shall touch mine. I am not sure if Alexa wishes me to stop masturbating or whether I will be granted release but that is a decision that is Alexa's to make and not mine. It is only my responsibility to carry out her orders and her desires nothing more. I am nervous about the tattoo as I have never had one before and I do not know how painful it will be but I am also proud that Alexa wishes to tattoo me with notice of her ownership of me. My life is now hers to do with as she pleases and that I could not be happier about.