Sunday 10th May, 2009

Dear Diary

With each passing day I get nearer to meeting Alexa and to taking my place as her slave. Alexa showed me a video of a domina whipping a man and informed me that soon it will be me getting whipped till blood is drawn. I have never been whipped so ferociously before, so I do not know if I can take such a beating but I will do my best to endure it. When I get to Bucharest I will ask Alexa if there is any bars which do karaoke as I think it would be really fun if Alexa, Fery, Angela and I went and sung some songs at a karaoke bar. We sang to each other over our microphones in yahoo messenger and that was a lot of fun and I think it will be cool to go to karaoke bars and sing songs together. I cant sing at all certainly not like Alexa can, she is a sensational singer as well as stunningly beautiful. But I try to sing as well as I can but if nothing else Im sure that how bad I am will make Alexa, Fery and Angela laugh as well as anyone else who can hear. There is a lot of musical ability in my family which is quite surprising why I have none I guess its because I got talent in other areas such as writing, which I hope Im good at. But for singing I definitely do not compare to Alexa, she sings like an angel and reminds me of a mystical being who sings her siren song and enthrals men to her power and commands them to do as she wishes. I certainly feel her power. I now understand better what my new life will be when im in Romania and im glad I will be with Alexa all the time except when at work and the times she doesn't desire my presence. I am still learning what it means to be a slave and to be her slave but in time and in the years to come my ability as her slave will improve as she trains me and points me in the right direction. Perhaps she sees more of what I can become than of what I am now, right now I am an untrained sub but under her watchful and caring gaze I could blossom like a flower into a radiant slave who knows instinctively what she wants from a look, a mood or a raise of her eyebrow and either be that or provide that for her. That is what I feel I will become for her a pet who will adore her and long to be praised by her.